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So I have been home from uni for about a week now. And today I have had a very easy chill day. All about me. Been for a late night walk around Hednesford Hills, just a gentle walk for about an hour, had my headphones round my neck listening to the sound of Einaudi to add to the calmness. And then it all just got me thinking. I started walking around routes I used to go to take the exs dog for a walk. And I sat at the spot where we always used to met, halfway between our houses. We had good and bad memories there. And I have just been thinking about everything. We would have been together four years this April just gone. It doesnt help either that all my friends back home, even people I have just bumped into and had a quick catch up with, all of them seem happy. They have cars and jobs and money, of which I only have the job. They all seem to be happily settled down, girlfriends/boyfriends on the verge of engagments. And I just look at myself and think, why dont I have anything like that. And then I come to my family, I love them all to pieces, but sometimes just looking at them, just gets me down. My mom and dad have been married about 20 odd years this August and are still going strong, my older sister has had her one year engagement, and then even my little sister has a boyfriend who she has been with for ages and they have been through stuff and she has managed to stay strong. I just want some of this now. And dont get me wrong I absolutley love my life at uni, wouldnt have chosen to do it any other way. I have some really good friends who I hope I can keep for life. If I am ever in need of a pick me up there are people around to do just that. But even some of them are happily settled and have that special someone. This summer has been the first summer I have been single for 3 years now, so thats probably why it comes as such a shock to me. But I would just like someone to be there, and someone that can stay around for more then just a few months and then leave again. Not asking for too much am I?